等到永远

看畢《Waiting for forever》。用網絡語言來形容，各種淚流滿面的我。

前半段的Will，讓我看到了另一條路上的自己。曾經也如此執迷于一個人，沒有膽量，或是沒有那麼多的愛支撐我也像Will一樣追隨著愛。是幸運，還是不幸。

他說”Yeah, you saw me in California. You put 60 cents in my hat, two quarters and a dime. I still have them”。那六十分錢，讓我想起我的兩張書籤。本質上多么相似。這樣的相似，讓我不安。

她於他，是愛，但更多的是依賴。他一直沉迷在自己的世界，自己的小時候，不肯活過來。直到事故，直到被放棄，才清醒過來。

他一直那麼憂鬱，即便是耍雜技，即便是逗別人開心，即便他在笑，還是能感覺到他的憂傷。



雖不喜歡他，卻還是會為他覺得難過。在他的世界，只有Emma。即便在警察局被按在地上，也一直喊著她的名字。



豆瓣有人言，一部愛情片卻穿插了四個人的死亡，可謂creepy。笑。

片子很好，只是覺得講述他成長的部份稍少，有點虎頭蛇尾的感覺。男主角演得太好了，顯得女主角有些弱。

近來看過的最好看的片子。

Dear Emma
　　Those two words, "Dear Emma", take me away to another time when we used to write to each other after mom and dad died. I used to tell you about new friends and my new life. And you used to tell me about the grand time my mom and dad were having in heaven. Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything. And the main thing that I used to believe was that I would be with you forever. Forever. The reason it has taken me so long to write to you is that I see that i have been a fool. I've spent my life fooling myself. Every letter I've ever written to you has been a love letter. How could they have been anything else! I can see now that all of them, except this one, were bad love letters. Bad love letters beg for love back. Good love letters ask for nothing. This, I'm pleased to announce, is my first good love letter to you. Because there is noting more for you to do. You've already done everything. I have enough of you in my head to last forever. So please don't ever worry about me. I'm peachy, I really am. I have everything. If I had one wish, it would be that you life brings you a taste of the happiness you have brought to me, that you can feel what it's like to love.
　　Your friend forever
　　Will

If this isn’t peachy, i don’t know what is。

我小时候英语不好，上补习班，下课8点半，骑车20分钟回家。在10年前房价没有飞涨的时候，那里还是郊区。有个住对面小区的男孩每周会和我一起骑车回家。

那些年家里有不少心烦的事，我讲我的郁闷，他讲他的迷茫。

2个学期后我们都毕业了。

我还记得家门口那条小路，夏天林荫森森。我们不读一个学校，我每天放学从南往北走，他每天放学从北往南走。有大约20米的距离，我会不期而遇。在接下来的3年来，不记得有多少个傍晚我总想着是不是会再次偶遇，于我喂遍了那条路上的所有流浪猫狗，仅仅“偶遇”了2次。

后来我毕业了，临走搬家的那天，我在那条路上来来回回游荡。我没有戴眼镜，远远看到一个模糊的高大的身影。

"我知道那种感觉, 就是那种无法呼吸的感觉. 周围的一切看起来那么高大, 我就像迷失了自己，那种喉咙被堵住的感觉"

"I had that same thing once, Will, When I couldn't breath "
"Everything looks so high to me,I didn't know where I was, I didn't know where to go"
"And my throat just closed up"

直到那个影子走到身旁我才发现，原来真的遇到了。可惜当时喉咙就像被堵上，发不出一点声音，两人只是迎面走来互相微笑，然后擦身而过。我们的故事到此为止，这是我最后一次见到他。

后来，我听说他在这里，他去了那里，等等等等。

为什么Ｗillie藏了那么多年不愿意说呢？

因为这一切就像是一个梦。看着她走在街上，仍然是过去那个天真无暇的小姑娘，善良，从悲伤中挽救他。她不会背叛她的男友，不会因为事业失败而万分沮丧，她就像是一个梦一样完美。

而这是一个易碎的梦。点一瓶香槟，告诉她我喜欢你很多年了，却换来的是她惊恐的表情：承诺我，你决不会再做这样的事情，你决不会再这样跟着我。

这也是一个没有理由的梦。姑娘迷茫，“我真的不知道他为什么会喜欢我。”这完全就是一场莫名其妙的暗恋。他不懂她爱的东西，不知她身边的朋友，不了解她的生活，却像一个影子一样仅仅跟随只要看到她便好。

有时我在想，我们到底还有没有这样不求回报不在乎结果的暗恋。

就像睡裤小弟说，我一直给你写了不少糟糕的情书。 糟糕的情书祈求你的爱，而一封好情书却别无索求。因为你带给我的已经足够。

Bad love letters beg for love back, good love letters ask for nothing.

Because there is nothing more for you to do.

只要默默地站在远方，看到你的生活带给你快乐，就像你带给我的快乐一样，这就足够。

If I have one wish, that is your life bring you a taste of happiness you have brought to me, that you can feel it's like to love.

因为我明白，我们就像两条平行线，永不相交。


特别喜欢结束时的那首歌：

back when we were young, we run into the sun.

It's like we fell apart,

Yes, you stole my heart.


I searched these wasted years,

to wipe away the tears, as my heart began to crack,

I can hardly speak, when you are in front of me

I can't breath.


Two path that would not cross

you left me feeling lost

But I love just the same,


故事在那个拥抱后就结束了，这是一部纯爱片，因为所有人都明白这早已不是一个纯爱的世界。

仍然祝有情人终成眷属，have a peachy life

因为 truth is nothing, what you believe to be true is everything

还有，对我而言，这只是一个童年的梦。

Dear Emma:

Those two words, "Dear Emma", take me away to another time when we used to write to each other after mom and dad died. I used to tell you about new friends and my new life. And you used to tell me about the grand time my mom and dad were having in heaven. Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything. And the main thing that i used to believe was that i would be with you forever. Forever. The reason it has taken me so long to write to you is that i see that i have been a fool. I've spent my life fooling myself. Every letter i've ever written to you has been a love letter. How could they have been anything else! I can see now that all of them, except this one, were bad love letters. Bad love letters beg for love back. Good love letters ask for nothing. This, I'm pleased to announce is my first good love letter to you. Because there is nothing more for you to do. You've already done everything. I have enough of you in my head to last forever. So please don't ever worry about me. I'm peachy, i really am. I have everything. If i had one wish, it would be that your life brings you a taste of the happiness you have brought to me, that you can feel what it's like to love.

Your friend forever
Will

Two path that would not cross
you left me feeling lost
But I love you just the same

看了《等到永远》,情不自禁的哭了,为Will,也为深爱着的他的哥哥.尽管从一开始哥哥就反对Will的人生观,一直在试图让Will从他所认为的幻想中醒来,关于生活,关于Emma,他认为Will的如此行为是一种强迫症,但是深埋在这之中的却是他作为一个哥哥对于Will的爱,这种爱藏的如此之深.以至于看到后来都觉得他对Will是如此的残忍.可是从头到尾一直站在Will背后的不正是哥哥吗?
看着看着,感觉Will对于Emma的爱是如此的可怜与卑微,好像所有的爱必须得到回报才让人觉得美好与没有遗憾,可是"Truth is nothing,what you believe to be is everything",Will的这句话却如此的强大,强大到让人觉得Will的生活和爱是如此的伟大,他只是在过一种他自己想要的生活,这种生活无关乎别人的看法与所有人认为的那种生活,这种生活是一种如桃子般甜蜜的生活.
结尾不免俗的来了一个给人希望的、符合大多数观众期望的结尾:Emma千辛万苦找到了正在街头卖艺的Will,而Will的那句:"Are you following me?"更是让人不由得会心一笑,这句话在Emma知道Will一直以来都在Emma 的附近的时候问过Will,当时Will一直在强调:"No,I go where you are",只有共同迸发出爱的火花的人才会深刻理解这两句话之间的区别吧.

It has to be said that childhood is always a peachy time of our lives, though sometimes we felt grieved, heart-broken and disappointed. Memory of the period of happy time impacts on the rest of life we will spend in some way that cannot be avoided.
Some day you may realize that what you are concentrating on is what you dreamt when you were young, or you may find that you have never given up your original blueprint of your future life. And all the milestones you built on you own road marked the changes you’ve got, which has another name called growth. Is that painful or undramatic?
No matter where I am, I could see pictures of us in details from various angles floating in my mind. Should it be recognized as missing or just a habit that you help me made?
Book and societies told us that life is always too tough to walk straight and complanately. In the meanwhile, life is too short to spend in animosity. Therefore, i threat everything I met like the gifts of region from the bliss.It is easy to make adieu for my past track of living, as well as to change the habit that you just by my side, leisurely and peacefully.
I want to say that all about us like a fairy tale ,but not all the stories must have an happy and plain ending. He or she could fade and wither as time goes by. So let the two paths will never cross might be a forgiveness for us two.
My sweetheart, fly away like a kite without any string, a vivid , restless captive, which takes my prayer and best wishes. Maybe also the three simple and fade words….

此片被收藏在想看一栏里起码了半年之久，要不是这样一个阴霾潮湿的下午，而正好被暖暖绿茶包围的我又想来部小温馨，我都不知道什么时候才能有一部爱情电影让我在九十多分钟里哭个三次！

第一次哭是当Will在黑人夫妇的车里讲诉对Emma的爱，那是从五年级开始，父母双双遇难，而Emma在他耳边轻声细语的安慰让这个男孩情根深种。从此深深陷入这份暗恋里不可自拔，一路追随，不为别的，只为远远的看一眼，然后呼吸到颤抖！这是一个活在自我世界里的男孩，他永远只穿一身睡衣裤，可恨的是居然还那么帅，睫毛长长，肤白红唇，说话的时候不自觉的会卖萌却又那么真挚感人。我落泪是因为这样一颗心，纯洁没有欲望，就像还未书写的宣纸，白的让人不敢落笔写下爱！

第二次哭是Will和哥哥在出租车里的那番真情对话。Will的哥哥就像我们身边最平凡的甲乙丙丁，为生活为家庭不断追逐，有丰厚的物质基础却也不得不放下对梦的渴望。他一边斥责Will不切实际的所作所为一边却也在弟弟遇到麻烦时毫不犹豫的挺身而出。那句“我相信你”让我顿时对这个严酷，现实的哥哥改观不少，而Will那句“Everything is not peachy，世事不全如蜜桃一般甜，”更是让眼泪澎涌而出。过后不得不分析下哥哥这个人物，他自小就成熟，接受了父母突然双亡，也不再为一颗果糖而兴奋不已，他要承担Will所不能承担的一切，当Will还在天真的和幻想中的父母对话时，他就得狠狠的在旁边扇上一巴掌“拜托你，醒醒吧”！就是这样一个坏人的角色，却也把哥哥这份浓厚又深藏的爱表现的淋漓尽致，当他把Will的情书交给Emma时，那几句简短的话语却也分量十足。固然Will是每个女人心中那柔软的孩子，而哥哥才是女人心中值得的依靠吧！

最后一次哭，是那份纯情孩子的情书！他说“情书有好坏之分，坏情书索求爱的回报，好情书只求给予”。天哪！！我当时就泪如泉涌啊，这孩子已经把爱完全升华到了神的高度，就好像在说“你去爱吧，勇敢的爱吧，就算那个人不是我，但我永远都会记得你的好，你对我的好值得我珍藏一辈子，我过的很好，因为从此以后我的脑子就只有你！”这是有多么纯情啊，被人捅了一刀还捂着伤口说谢谢，要不是在看电影，我定会冲过去把他摇醒或者直接拉去医院看病！但幸好这也只是电影，也只能在电影里这样表现，现实生活中这样的人都会被视为异类，而这些浪漫也会被说成变态吧。

结局不免有些俗气，但那句充满着诱惑的“你是在跟踪我吗？”也宣告着闷骚孩子的春天终于来了。

看完浪漫电影难免感叹唏嘘一番，感叹这个世界没有那么美好，感叹我们都没那么勇敢，感叹泡妞还得多准备银子，感叹父母怎么没把我生的那么帅。。。。。。总之这是给做梦者准备的一份情书，各种编排各种桥段都堪称完美，只是你我都不在这份名单里。